I wannabe a super model….

Well, close, but not quite.

Either you can or you can’t tell in my pics that I have lost almost 30 pounds… almost… started working again on reaching my goal of 40 lost just last week.

I’m really proud of myself… I look and feel better… plus great enthusiasm from my wonderful boyfriend helps…

Thanksgiving break… but not really a break is it… I have a divorced family so a split holidays are always fun… can you tell the sarcasm in my voice… And I work.

A lot of memorization going on right now… a monologue (which I have to write too) for acting class, a monologue from Trojan Women for the audition for Trojan Women, and tonight I’m shooting two out of the three scenes I’m in for a movie… Chasing Eden.

Plus biology… and my computer survival class, which I started late and within the first two weeks I have more then half done with all the assignments and tests. 

With so much going on at times I can feel overwhelmed and get emotional… Plus I will see my dad on Thursday and the last I had heard from him was 4 words… “I’m fine, been busy.”  It’s a long story that actually started when I was six… so I suggest if you really want to know just leave a comment. 

So emotional angst on top of school, on top of acting, on top of work, on top of family, and on top of a relationship… OMG!!!

I think I need a time out.

Ok just an update…

I can’t wait for Thanksgiving break!!! A week off will really do me good. 

Well finally I think my feminine issues have simply not become an issue anymore.  Finally the right medications and the right amount of estrogen in my body, I have been break through free for over three weeks!!!

Though this past week I did have a battle with the flu, migraine headache, nausea, aching all over… yeah it wasn’t pretty.  And I’m still recovering.

My weekend classes are done and over with… I had to add two, one credit hour classes because I had to drop my Latin class.  I had to write a total of six papers in a week… talk about stress…

Now all I have to focus on is Biology and Acting. 

Frank and I have been together now for a little over three months, things are still going well, except for the occasional tiff.  And there are some things that he has done that have bothered me, but all in all it’s still a new relationship and things are not perfect.

That’s about it for now… If I have more I’ll write later.

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Now an update for another month…
First Latin is kicking my butt, so is biology but not as bad.  My show will be over soon and that will give me more time to focus on my studies.  Frank and I have been together for two months and really growing strong; actually growing more serious.  It’s a new different balance and I actually really like it.  My great grand mother has pneumonia; my grandfather on my dad’s side is having health issues.  I caught my brother having a party a couple of weeks ago and had to kick every underage half naked teenager out of my mothers’ house.  Finally my health issues have been resolved for the most part, not just getting the dosage right.  I love being an actor but I hate all of this extra general ed. Classes that I have to take.  Plus the stress of taking these classes and doing a show and still trying to live a normal life.  Though once I go to grad school my focus will be my art, my career, and then I can live a different normal life. 

Well I think things are starting to work themselves out, but still not back on track, but starting to pick up the wreckage from everything.   I have auditions this weekend and they were fabulous.  More auditions to come this weekend too.  Tell me to “Break a Leg!”

Ok, so an update from almost a month ago.  My step grandfather was in the hospital; he has been out for two and half weeks and immediately started smoking again.  My cat got better, but now my mom still lets him outside.  My brother got a speeding ticket and if he gets one more his license will be taken away, and reminder that he is only 17.  I started classes on the 21^st.  So today starts the second week.  I have had some feminine medical problems for the past 10 weeks.  They should get better though.  I can’t seem to save any money since I am a college student, paying for EVERYTHING myself.  My mind, body and soul are all out of whack.  And the person I am/was seeing, well that’s why I used am/was because I have no idea, we got into a little tiff, I have been emotional because of my body being out of whack and… I just want to work things out.  Last night Kate came over and I drank a whole bottle of wine, and today I feel like shit.  And I know it’s my own fault and I accept that.  I just don’t understand some things about people and I know I never will.  I don’t know, I’m just too emotional right now.  I hate my body sometimes.